This is not any of my philosophies, or at least I don't think so. I am trying to simply capture what I am feeling and what I assume every person feels at some point or the other. It strikes when everything in and around you seems to be going fine, you seem to be enjoying your work, studies, etc. and suddenly there appears this moment when you simply have no faith, no hope, no enthusiasm, no needs, no wants and no desires. Its a blank moment, when you simply don't know what to do, not that you had something that you were thinking about or something that you were worrying about, but that everything simply seems pointless, senseless. And you start wondering about all the things that have happened in your life so far and which are happening right now.
Many a times, there are these times when there is a lot of chaos around you; your work place, your classroom, any random place and you just want to be alone in your mind, just to think nothing. And so we thought. And I realized that it is in these times when you do the most critical of thinking, look and analyze at everything that you have been doing and people have been doing to you, and situations that have been controlling you. And then you suddenly feel the need to know how something else started controlling you. And so we start being true to ourselves, we no longer hide things that we normally hid from ourselves during our normal dormant thinking. And then begins a journey of a road less traveled.
Most of such thinking comes around when you want to take a decision about something that you never realized was bothering you. And you immediately recognize the burden that you have been carrying around for a very long time and suddenly you feel the desperate need to solve it.
As I always believe, you generally tend to crib and cry about the things that go wrong in your life and often start praying for what you want. What you never understand is that while you are so busy only looking at the shorter solutions and roads to make your own life easy, you can barely understand the effect that a good or a bad even has on your future path. And its as if the guy up there was creating these events cause he knows the better path for you. So its always for the good. Now while this is easy to say, its almost impossible to do or live it even though you know that it is the right thing to do. Its like these two brains; one which always gives you these correct solutions, which you deep down somewhere know is true and the right thing to do. And then there is the other one which wants to just end the crisis or the pain for you and go back to your "familiar" situation which you have accepted as a part of your life. And you suddenly wonder if these two parts of your brain are even connected together.
The truth is, if you have sat down wondering about anything at all, chances are that you were already thinking about a lot of things that you were not even conscious about. And sometimes there are no solutions at all. It's that way probably because its just not yet the right time for you to get the solution, not just the time for you to be calm or start flying. In short, simply not your time. It sure pains a lot to feel helpless, to feel like a puppet dancing on strings. But you have to understand that you are still a puppet cause you don't have the strength to stand on your own. Its time to simply go through the pain like a small bird coming out of its egg. The pain is necessary to help you stand and fly. And it is this very pain that will work wonders for you down the path less traveled.
